Self Cynic

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released June 13, 2008

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Track Name: Goodbye
I was drawn by fear, so what’s that saying?
Complicated face… take it either way
Hey… don’t you want outta here?
Hey… don’t you want outta here?
Goodbye.

When the carpet comes, I see you walk by
Carry all your crowns; they love you tonight
Hey… don’t you want outta here?
Hey… don’t you need outta here?
Goodbye.

Oh, first you sense it… a lie.
Oh, you repent it… you and I.

I want you in a way I’m working to hide
Not in-front of friends… just on the side.
Hey… don’t you want outta here?
Hey… best you get outta here!
Goodbye.

Oh, first you sense it… a lie.
Oh, you repent it… you and I.

So Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Track Name: The Next Room
Tell me there's no other world
Show me there's no other girls
And meet me in the next room

Could you see it in my face?
Leave him for me, just today
I'll meet you in the next room

Walk me over, take my hand
And make a list of all the things that we won't say
Just in case we don't feel this way again

As your friends have grown to hate
Please don't settle for what's safe
Meet me in the next room
Meet me in the next room

Walk me over, take my hand
And make a list of all the things that we won't say
Just in case we don't feel this way again

Meet me in the next room
Track Name: Misbehave
Fight to the last bullshit claim
Under-reveal, instigate
Bet that I know, believe, I show what I want to
Laughin' at you... well, shame on me

Why not go out and misbehave?
Why? No, nothing profound, just misbehave
I, just like you, we do what we want to
Misbehave

Never deny the things you say
They think what they want, anyway
Bet that I know, believe, I say what I want to
Laughin' at you... well, shame on me

Why not go out and misbehave?
Why? No, nothing profound, just misbehave
I, just like you, we do what we want to
Misbehave
Track Name: In My Head
Lay your hands on my throat
And watch me now lie again, try again
Maybe someone should know
Before we get high again, fly again

Of a place where the teaching and preaching you see
Don't come free
Where our hands follow suit, as they trust in our eyes
As I trust in my...

In my head, as real as the fear
In my head, as clear as stain-glass
In my head, or is it better off left in my...?

To paint the day, who am I?
Just a single voice, and so I'll hide and let it slide
And further down, damned we go
And though we cry, no goodbyes

For a time where the grays in the shades still remained
We were sane
Now I dance as my feet rush only to comply
Should just trust in my...

In my head, as real as the fear
In my head, as clear as stain-glass
In my head, or is it better off left in my...?

How far we go, so far
So far to go, how far?
So far we go

In my head, as real as the fear
In my head, as clear as stain-glass
In my head, but it's not what I see
In my head, the dreams I believe
In my head, these things I believe
In my head...

Or is it better off left in my...?
Track Name: Mona Lisa
An ocean girl and a farm-bred boy
Always facing two sides of the coin
Ever strong, she would say: far too long to make up my mind
But these shots taken in the dark won’t rearrange this time

I know we tried
Couldn’t change inside

Every heart craves their Mona Lisa
We did the best we could
I’ll look back years from now, girl
And I’ll know we were good

A super-girl, a struggling boy
Built on fate and time, say goodbye
Ever strong, now your head hangs down. Saw it take shape in your eyes
Cause across the street or a world away, we were living separate lives

You know we tried
Couldn’t change inside

Every heart craves their Mona Lisa
We did the best we could
I’ll look back years from now, girl
And I’ll know we were good

Passing time, the shadows cast upon us
Circumstance or distance, meant to wrong us

Every heart craves their Mona Lisa
We did the best we could
I’ll look back years from now, girl
And I’ll know we were good
Track Name: Stone Throw
The girl out in the street
A sight & sound for no one
Envy at her feet, her own
It's easy to be weak when life holds down

Hey little girl
When's the last time you looked your way?
Do you see yourself?
Your darkened eyes and your disguise
When all you ever want
It's just a stone throw away

All these words discrete
For onlookers, a sleepwalker
Fashion of the day, her own
It's easy not to see when life holds down

Hey little girl
When's the last time you looked your way?
Do you see yourself?
Your darkened eyes and your disguise
When all you ever want
It's just a stone throw away

First you tear it out, then you'll need it in
Cause you don't need those lies, you'll see

Hey little girl
When's the last time you looked your way?
Do you see yourself?
Your darkened eyes and your disguise
When all you ever want
It's just a stone throw away
Track Name: All Around
Reading words, believe
Every place there's different beings
While others drown for all that we reap
Cause we're unique

It's all the same to me
What to feel on this busy street
A city's name don't change what you see
All around

Never on lost sight
What they've wrong, that we've done right
All the eyes taught how they should see
Cause we're unique

It's all the same to me
What to feel on this busy street
A city's name don't change what you see
All around

And all of us different, just to be different

Kept in fine-print deals
By statesmen aimed to steal
It's not for them deciding for me
Cause we're unique

It's all the same to me
What to feel on this busy street
A city's name don't change what you see
All around
Track Name: Never Change
All the time we said where we'd meet someday
Seems we're both behind the line
Keeping track of days until they wander by
Now I'm just running 'round, defined

Meghan dreams an uphill climb, a rocky start
She's still at it everyday
Always wears her chin up to the world
Tried to keep my head on straight

You make me want to climb
I almost lost how that felt inside
Keeping time for old things that never change
I've tried

I don't know so much that really matters now
I can't teach you a thing
I'd just love to hear, I hope to hold on tight
To everything she brings

You make me want to climb
I almost lost how that felt inside
Keeping time for old things that never change
I've tried

And I've tried, but I let me down
I'll try, but I let me down

You make me want to climb
I almost lost how that felt inside
Keeping time for old things that never change
I've tried
Track Name: Try It Again
Say the wrong thing, I'm bound to say
But I'll try it all over again
I'd give you up for good, yeah, if I only could
So I'll try it all over again

So I turn to you and speak
Unprepared, casual stare
Whisper your shoulder turn to me
And with each word, pretend I don't care

So do you stand or fall away?
What do I say?

Say the wrong thing, I'm bound to say
But I'll try it all over again
I'd give you up for good, yeah, if I only could
So I'll try it all over again

We can't hide what we can't change
The past repeats, times we fake
Green inside, black and gray
Postcards of the choice we make

So do you stand or fold away?
What do I say?

Say the wrong thing, I'm bound to say
But I'll try it all over again
I'd give you up for good, yeah, if I only could
So I'll try it all over again

Gonna try it all over again
Track Name: Evil Freedom
You make it all so easy
Can't you see that I'm weak?
You make me feel so needy
Losing years in this sleep

Oh my friend, all we risk just for this
All that I need, just to live with it
Evil Freedom

Falling down, building up inside
Say you understand what's on my mind
The things we're told just for telling lies
Wasting time

I hear these strangers say they know what's best
Well, it must be easier looking in
Feeling more and more just like the rest
Just a struggle to impress

Oh my friend, all we risk just for this
Took what I need, but I can't live with it
Evil Freedom

Falling down, building up inside
Say you understand what's on my mind
The things we're told just for telling lies
Wasting time
Track Name: Already Gone
She's lovely in her disguise
She owns me, though she never tries

She can't decide how she thinks she feels inside
She knows me now, she thinks
I know we've tried, but she can't decide

Now, maybe she'll stay
Now, she doesn't say
What's the story now?
Can you get it straight?
When you dive inside and find you care
I'm already gone from there

A fiction thunders in my brain
Predictions, today she's gonna look away

She can't decide how she thinks she feels inside
She knows me now, she thinks
I know we've tried, but she can't decide

Now, maybe she'll stay
Now, she doesn't say
So what's the story now?
Can you get it straight?
When you dive inside and find you care
I'm already gone from there

A t-shirt, I'm just another boy in line
Still we flirt, but the blueprints have been left behind

I'll decide how it's not gonna feel inside
She knows me now, she thinks
I know I tried, but she won't decide

Now, maybe she'll stay
Now, she doesn't say
So what's the story now?
Can't you get it straight?
So you dove inside and found you care
Well, I'm already gone from there
Track Name: Left Behind
She tells me she'll be alright, but she won't
She shares her cries, as she cries
Spends each day through its night, no one at her side
How high the walls she keeps, too high

Left behind, you fell to pieces
Now ghosts have closed that open mind
Perched above us all, you see it
Left behind

She'll find someone to tell her what she wants
So she won't need to be herself
Tell me how many more have attempted and failed you?
And how many more just couldn't be somebody else?

Left behind, you fell to pieces
Now ghosts have closed that open mind
Perched above us all, you see it
Left behind

And with these words, now I'm exposed
But will you choose to be so cold?

Left behind, you fell to pieces
Now ghosts have closed that open mind
Perched above us all, you see it
Left behind